Monthly Archives: December 2008
Secret Fears
I’ve been talking about secrets today. Over on my art blog, I was talking about secret dreams, but here, I’ll be talking about secret fears. And my gigantic, mammoth-sized secret fear. I’m afraid that I’m crazy. When I was first … Continue reading
Filed under Are We Just Crazy?
Seeing myself as human again
So I found something out last night that was kind of crushing. Apparently, my boyfriend’s grandma asked him if he was really sure about dating me because “I was a bit sickly.” And that he’d have to take care of … Continue reading
Filed under Rebuilding Identity
Relapse.
Yesterday, I had a bad day. Actually, this whole frigging week has been a bad week. It was hard to tell if it was the weather, or if I was getting sick. It felt like a cold, but often times, … Continue reading
Filed under Coping Techniques for CFS
World Saving Has Been Postponed
Editor’s Note: I originally wrote this post for my other blog, but since I’m having another day like it, I thought I’d re-post it here. I often seem like I have my shit together. Some days I do. Some days … Continue reading
Filed under Coping Techniques for CFS
Building a New Comfort Zone
It happened out of nowhere. You woke up one day and you felt like crap. You thought you were just sick, but that feeling never went away. Day in and day out, you just kept on feeling sick. You finally … Continue reading
Miracle cures.
Miracle cures annoy the crap out of me. They’re not just annoying. To be honest, I think they’re cruel. They prey upon the defenceless, the frustrated, those who feel powerless, those who are desperate. They promise you that if you … Continue reading
Filed under Why I Hate Miracle Cures
I can hear your soul crying
You woke up today, and you kind of feel like your heart is breaking. You want to curl up in bed and hide and cry for a long time. And its not like anything specific happened. No one told you … Continue reading
Filed under Coping Techniques for CFS
Broken body
Your body broke. It stopped working. It started doing weird things like feeling tired and sore and painful. It started giving you headaches. It started making it hard to think. It just went and broke when you weren’t looking. And … Continue reading
Filed under Coping Techniques for CFS
Feeling old
You’re young. You’re 15, 16, 21. Whatever. You’re under the age of 30. And you feel like you’re 95. Your bones creak, your joints ache, your muscles groan. You’re tired. You’re cranky. You feel like you have no time for … Continue reading
